creativity.

there is nothing that i find more rewarding then creation. for the longest time i thought that it was music. i wasn't wrong, i just wasn't completely right. it's the act of being creative. it so happens that music is my primary vessel but it's bigger then that.

i've started writing and recording music on a more regular basis the last little while. it feels great, even if the music isn't. it's the process. i hadn't actually finished a song in literally years and just to actually get to that point (which i've recently done) makes me wonder why i haven't been working harder at this because it's so enriching.

this goes beyond music for me because one thing i've learned is that the process is nearly ubiquitous whether you're talking about music, film, writing or anything else. for whatever reason music has always made the most sense to me and so that has been how i've been able to most utilize my creativity. but i enjoy going through the exercise just as much when it pertains to writing or working on video, or even just having a cool conversation with someone. i think even daydreaming counts as being creative. i'm creating scenarios; some absurd, some plausible, some even prophetic and then acting them out in my head.

it's making something out of nothing. something you are a part of. something that is a part of you. it's nothing short of exhilarating.

that is what i most look forward to when (hopefully not if) i have children. that rush that i'll get every time i look at my kid, knowing that i helped create this living breathing beautiful creature. i already know it'll be what i'm most proud of. if i have more then one kid they'll have to fight it out for my pride. winner take all.